CEO He : Please Don't Love Me

389  The First Kiss

Sitting inside the silent car, Mo Roulan looked out of the window. Her mind was again filled with so many thoughts just like how she had been full of them when she was on her way to He Mansion an hour ago with He Jian. However, this time those thoughts were completely different from before. Before she had been thinking that she should worry about whether He family members would like her or not. The fear of not being liked had made her almost run away from the entrance of He Mansion. However, before she could really do so, He Jian had held her hand as if he knew her thoughts, and then she had seen Shen Yiling. What had she called He Jian…

Mo Roulan remembered again. Brother Jian… it was. Her eyes went emotionless unconsciously when she remembered that once He Jian had asked her to call him by that same name. However, after she had said it once that night, he never asked her to do it again. At this moment, Mo Roulan felt fortunate not to be forced to call him by that name. She would not have been able to do so. And then Grandfather He's wish came all of a sudden and she had gone into a long trance. What made Grandfather He have such a wish all of a sudden…Mo Roulan knew it very well. She saw how Shen Yiling's eyes had gleamed when she had heard Grandfather He's wish. She had already known that this was going to happen at the dinner. However, what bothered Mo Roulan was that her mother had already agreed to this. She had already agreed …without even discussing with her such a matter. Did she even know what this meant actually? Her name would have He with her name instead of Mo. Even though she would still be her daughter and Mo Chen's sister, people would only recognize her as He family's granddaughter, not as Mo family's daughter. What did her mother think before agreeing to Grandfather He's wish!

Mo Roulan really wanted to know. She was hurt also …actually beyond hurt. What a child would think when his mother would agree to such a wish of someone else…Mo Roulan was thinking the same. What did she do to make her mother wish to send her away like this?

Mo Roulan's eyes unconsciously started to fill with tears. .

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It was a soft sniff that attracted He Jian's attention to Mo Roulan. Until now, he had been sitting silently with a cold face and his grandfather's words were repeating inside his mind again and again. His fists were clenched tightly which suddenly loosened when he heard the soft sniff from his left side.

All of a sudden, He Jian's whole body went stiff. For a moment, he thought that it was just his illusion. However, when another sniff followed, he could no longer think that it was just his hallucination. His blue eyes glanced towards Mo Roulan as a frown marred his forehead. He Jian's fists clenched tightly when he noticed that Mo Roulan's shoulders were shaking. She was crying!

In one swift move, he was by her side closer to her as his arm wrapped around her shoulders so smoothly as if he had been doing just this for his whole life. His other hand tried to remove her hand from her face as he asked gently "Lanlan, what happened?"

His voice however no matter how gentle it was, carried a trace of concern, panic, and worry.

Mo Roulan wanted to kick herself when she realized that she had attracted He Jian's attention. She covered her hands with more force when she felt him trying to push her hands away. "Nothing…"

She tried to answer without choking but her voice was still a little choked. She just wanted to go away from everything at this moment. It was difficult to be around him…around those people who had messed up her past life. It was not only her mother's agreement to Grandfather He's wish that had bothered Mo Roulan but it was He Jian's swift 'no' as well. She actually didn't know whether she should be happy or she should be sad. She also didn't want to become He Family's adopted granddaughter. But He Jian's direct no also hurt her very much. He didn't love her…she knew it very well. But did he dislike her so much that he did not want her to be called his adopted sister also? The realization hurt Mo Roulan!

She suddenly uncovered her face and looked at He Jian's eyes which were filled with worry and concern. Was it also fake? But why does he need to fake all of it?

Oh…yes he needed to repay her.

A bitter smile graced Mo Roulan's lips as another tear slid out of her eyes and she finally told him. "You don't need to repay me if you hate me so much, He Jian." Nôv(el)B\\jnn

There she finally said it. Mo Roulan felt a different kind of relief seeping through her veins. She had wanted to say this many times before too. It was not the first time she had sensed his dislike towards her. She had felt it when he had thrown her hand away and had asked her not to touch him again!

The remembrance of that day made Mo Roulan pull away from He Jian. Yes, he didn't like her touch. However, before she could pull away, she was grabbed by He Jian firmly who had a deep frown on his forehead. He held her there as he looked at Mo Roulan's lowered head trying to figure out what exactly was going on inside the young girl's mind.

He Jian chuckled suddenly but his chuckle didn't have any humor. His voice was a little mocking when he asked Mo Roulan "What did you say just now?"

Mo Roulan, of course, sensed his mocking voice. She disliked it and hence she repeated her words with a little annoyance the next time. "I said if you dislike me so much…"

However, before she could complete her words, He Jian suddenly grabbed her chin and made her look up at him. "Say it now."

Mo Roulan could feel her heart beating quickly but she suppressed her weird feelings and opened her mouth to repeat her words. "I said that if you dislike m…"

However, He Jian didn't let her complete her words again. Because soon his lips covered M Roulan's lips.